no evidence of cancer. She’l stil be tested every three months, but as of right now, this very moment, his mother is alive in the ful est sense of the word.

We’re out celebrating.

Étienne and I are sprawled before the Grand Bassin, an octagonal pool popular for sailing toy boats. Meredith is playing a league footbal game in an

indoor field across the street, and Josh and Rashmi are watching. We watched, too, for a while. She’s fantastic, but our attention to organized sports only lasts so long. Fifteen minutes into it, and Étienne was whispering in my ear and prodding me with lifted brows.

I didn’t take much convincing. We’l head back in a bit, to catch the end.

It’s strange that this is my first time here, because the garden rests against the Latin Quarter. I’ve been missing out. So far Étienne has shown me a

beekeeping school, an orchard, a puppet theater, a carousel, and a courtyard of gentlemen lost in boules, lawn bowling. He says we’re in the best park in all of Paris, but I think it’s the best park in the world. I wish I could take Seany here.

A tiny sailboat breezes behind us, and I sigh happily. “Étienne?”

We’re lying next to each other, propped up against the ledge of the Bassin. He shifts, and his legs find a comfortable spot against me. Our eyes are

closed. “Hmm?” he asks.

“This is sooo much better than a footbal game.”

“Mm, isn’t it, though?”

“We’re so rotten,” I say.

He slaps me with a lazy arm, and we laugh quietly. Sometime later, I realize he’s cal ing my name.

“Wha?” I must have drifted asleep.

“There’s a sailboat in your hair.”

“Huh?”

“I said, ‘There’s a sailboat in your hair.’”

I try to lift my head, but it snaps back, snagged. He wasn’t kidding. An agitated boy about Seany’s age approaches, speaking in rapid French. Étienne

laughs as I try to pry the toy’s sails from my head.The boat tips over, and my hair dips into the Bassin.The young boy shouts at me.

“Hel o, help?” I throw an exasperated look at Étienne, whose laughter has reduced him into a fit of giggles. He struggles up as the boy reaches for my

hair, tearing at the wet tangles.

“OUCH!”

Étienne snaps at him, and the boy lets go. Étienne’s fingers wrap around my hair and gently work the cloth and string and wood from it. He hands the

boat back to the boy and says something else, this time in a softer voice, hopeful y warning him to keep the boat away from innocent bystanders. The boy

clutches his toy and runs away.

I wring out my hair. “Ugh.”

“That’s very clean water.” He grins.

“Sure it is.” But I love how he knows what I’m thinking.

“Come on.” He stands and offers his hand. I take it, and he helps me up. I expect him to drop it, but he doesn’t. Instead, he leads me to a safe spot

away from the pool.

It’s nice holding hands. Comfortable.

I wish friends held hands more often, like the children I see on the streets sometimes. I’m not sure why we have to grow up and get embarrassed about

it. We sit in the grass underneath a canopy of pink blossoms. I glance around for the Grass Police in their little conductor hats, always eager to remove citizens from the lawns, but I don’t see them. Étienne is a good-luck charm when it comes to this sort of thing. My hair drips through the back of my shirt but, somehow, it’s not so bad right now.

We are stil holding hands.

Okay, we should let go. This is the point where it would be normal to let go.

Why aren’t we letting go?

I force my gaze to the Grand Bassin. He does the same.We’re not watching the boats. His hand is burning, but he doesn’t let go. And then—he scoots

closer. Just barely. I glance down and see the back of his shirt has crawled up, exposing a slice of his back. His skin is smooth and pale.

It’s the sexiest thing I have ever seen.

He shifts again, and my body answers with the same. We’re arm against arm, leg against leg. His hand crushes mine, will ing me to look at him.

I do.

Étienne’s dark eyes search mine. “What are we doing?” His voice is strained.

He’s so beautiful, so perfect. I’m dizzy. My heart pounds, my pulse races. I tilt my face toward his, and he answers with an identical slow tilt toward mine.

He closes his eyes. Our lips brush lightly.

“If you ask me to kiss you, I will ,” he says.

His fingers stroke the inside of my wrists, and I burst into flames.

“Kiss me,” I say.

He does.

We are kissing like crazy. Like our lives depend on it. His tongue slips inside my mouth, gentle but demanding, and it’s nothing like I’ve ever experienced, and I suddenly understand why people describe kissing as melting because every square inch of my body dissolves into his. My fingers grip his hair,

pul ing him closer. My veins throb and my heart explodes. I have never wanted anyone like this before. Ever.

He pushes me backward and we’re lying down, making out in front of the children with their red bal oons and the old men with their chess sets and the

tourists with their laminated maps and I don’t care, I don’t care about any of that.

Al I want is Étienne.

The weight of his body on top of mine is extraordinary. I feel him—al of him—pressed against me, and I inhale his shaving cream, his shampoo, and

that extra scent that’s just . . . him. The most delicious smel I could ever imagine.

I want to breathe him, lick him, eat him, drink him. His lips taste like honey. His face has the slightest bit of stubble and it rubs my skin but I don’t care, I don’t care at all. He feels wonderful. His hands are everywhere, and it doesn’t matter that his mouth is already on top of mine, I want him closer closer closer.

And then he stops. Instinct. His body is rigid.

“How could you?” a girl cries.

Chapter thirty-nine

My first thought is El ie.

El ie found us, and she’s going to strangle me with her bare hands, right here, with the puppeteer and carousel horses and beekeepers all as

witnesses. My throat will turn purple, and I’l stop breathing, and I’l die. And then she’l go to prison and write Étienne psychotic letters on parchment made from dried skin for the rest of his life.